THE SYAHIR YOU (didn't) KNOW

I, to some extent, regret coming to AC. Like seriously... It's not culture shock, nor is it stress, but it's the sheer fact that I don't really know who I can trust. I'm not at all trying to sound as if I'm wallowing in self-pity or making you think I want you to sympathise with me, but really, I don't have friends that I can trust. Well, I had but yea. I thought making friends in AC would be a breeze for me, but that's what I thought. I don't know why, but whatever I say will trigger one's aggressive emotion, cause their blood to boil and reveal the inner-devil within their pseudo-warm-hearts. But when another person says the EXACT same thing I said nothing happens?

HOW ABOUT THAT?

Okay, yes, I do sound like I'm bitching, but it is REALLY unfair. You know what I mean... Geez. Kk, let's look at the seemingly possible reasons why they treat me like a pail of mud. (No pun intended -to Yiren if you're reading this)

1) They're jealous 'cos I'm a 20 pointer, I appealed in second intake and I got through all my auditions. Injustice... ?
2) I annoy them?
3) I'm insensitive?
4) I talk too much?
5) I'm a boot-licker?
6) I'm a geek?

Well, erm...
1) It is really beyond my control to get through the auditions. It really is.. AND REALLY, there is absolutely nothing to be jealous about.
2) I annoy them? Well, yes I do annoy them, but I stop. I stop when I know I've gone too far.
3) I'm insensitive? HA! joke.
4) I talk too much. Look, I don't really talk that much.
5) I don't boot-lick. I'm responsible.
6) It's just my nature to do my work and hand them in on time.

SO TELL ME... REALLY... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?





I just need a friend. Really.