haha! Yeah. Sorry for the really late post-o-level post. Have been rather busy with life... I think.
My brain stopped functioning today. Heh.
Well, I guess O's were relatively easier than prelims. Just that I think I didn't put in my 110%. BAHHH! It's over... No use thinking too much.
But then again, I think I think much more now than I think before O's. HAHA! Like, not only thinking about the results but much more... Like, what can I do during the holidays, now that I don't have any homework or assignments to complete...
BANG!
BEFORE I KNOW IT, it's December today. What have I done so far? I've assisted a Young Champ programme, 2 Empower U's, work (with little kids who are really adorable and sarcasm is non-existent in their lives so we can poke fun ON them while they are oblivious to the fact that we are actually laughing at them), church and church camp, study Philosophy knowing that one day it'll be rather useful and and and of course many many sleeep.
KK... screw the other not very important stuff like work, YC and EU, and Philo...
Just came back from church camp. By just I mean 4 days ago. And camp was absolutely awesome. It really is a life changing experience, now that I see life at a totally different perspective. Taking some time to adapt to this change, but I'm trusting God that in due time, I'll be able to live a comfortable and at the same time, righteous life.
Before the camp, I felt really dry. Like, I'm trying my best to feel God, but God doesn't seem to reciprocate the favour. I know it's not right to say such things... But yea, I tried oh-so-hard to squeeze every ounce of liquid in me for God and what I get in return is a shrivelled prune- all dried up. Have been really waiting to hear God's voice after so long. And JonQ was telling me that maybe God was speaking to me all this while THROUGH the enthusiasm I had for Him. It's another way of how God speaks to His children I guess. But that wasn't exactly the highlight of the point. It was just a fraction of the life-changing process.
All the 2 sessions (I attended) during the camp was A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. [Where was I on the 2 session? 1.GA3chalet; 2.writingencouragementnotes] Nonetheless, it was just epiphanies after epiphanies.
Why did I cry? I guess there's no harm sharing here... Hmm, well, I cried for various reasons...
1) Unreached Friends
2) Backsliding Friends
3) Friends' Burdens
4) The gap I had with God
5) The gap I had with Friends.
GAH! All these are really cliche if you think about it. But then again yeah... Like, I cannot, at this point of time articulate my words properly, but I think what God wants me to do, is to let me see through His eyes and how He grieves. At this point of time, I have this picture where Pa sits on His majestic throne, looking down at us and shaking His head. At the same time, tears swelling up His eyes, but He knows He has to be strong not to let it all out. He then appoints His spirit to dwell in selected hearts who are ready to see what He sees. BAHHHH! I don't know. I think that's how I see God now. Just looking down on us and weeping.
Besides that, I met quite a hell lot of people I have never seen before in WEB. HAHA! And It's a great joy to see like my group mates grow in just for days.
Oh wells, I'm off to bed. Will continue... soon?
